Hosanna.

Two blogs in one day. I have a lot of feelings.

There is a line in Hosanna where Hillsong sings "break my heart for what breaks yours".
I always thought I understood this line.  But understanding and actually living it is absolutely different.
I cry. But I don't know why.  Because there are so many reasons.
And then I am angry. Because it is not fair.  I am so confused.
And then I feel guilty. Because I don't deserve to feel at all.
So then I feel nothing.
I start to put myself back together.
And then there are little things. Here and there. That pushes me over. That breaks me.
And I fall apart all over again.

I hurt because she is hurting.
I cry because I know she is crying.

I wonder if God cries too when He sees her cry?
Does His heart break when He sees how broken all of us are?


John 14:1-4 NIV
"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going."